Taking a Break

June 7, 2011

Hi everyone.

I have been trying to post, but it’s been increasingly difficult.

I don’t believe in writing when it’s forced.

It’s painful, because I have multiple family issues that require extreme and utmost attention.

I don’t short change my family.

I’m a WIFE,  a Mother, and a Daughter.  I work full time – this is not my job. I don’t make any money here.  I must leave for a while to attend to two very seriously life altering situations in my life and that of my family.  I can only ask for your prayers.  My mother has grown seriously ill and potentially fatally.  I am also going to have a baby.  I am not a young woman, so it’s been difficult.  But I can’t short change my writing either.  So, I am putting the blog down for a while.

I plan to return.  I LOVE writing, politics, history and science and I’m a female, which means I have an OPINION.  But MY FAMILY COMES FIRST.

I appreciate everyone’s comments.  The good, the bad and even the ugly.





Wisconsin – Oconto County – Step daughter (14 year old girl) attempts to kill pregnant step mom with ANTI-Freeze. Chyanne Otto is a disturbed female.

January 21, 2011

Should we now consider a age requirement for buying anti-freeze?

Chyanne is on her way to a personal hell that she created.  If she’s lucky.  This would mean that she has remorse and a conscience.  It doesn’t sound that way from her diary.  The below statement is admission that she was FULLY aware of the fact that this was REALLY WRONG.

“I so want to kill Dawn, but she is pregnant. So I am going to kill her and the baby or just her and wait until October,” the complaint claims that Chyanne Otto wrote in her journal.



She understood that the step-mom was pregnant.  She also didn’t CARE.  The fact that she says pregnant describes the step mom in a CONDITION.

This in my opinion is the result of our oversexed society and repeated instruction to young woman to visit “Planned Parenthood” to get their abortions and contraception.  There is NOTHING about “planned” in PP.  They don’t give advice to women if they are pregnant and WANT THE BABY.  THAT too is PLANNED.  Keeping the baby is a PLAN.  They offer nothing related to that.  They offer nothing on problems CONCEIVING.   This name should be revealed as a DECEPTION.


The constant barrage of mis information and DEHUMANIZING an unborn CHILD is part of the reason why there is little empathy for a pregnant woman.  There is a sense of disconnect.


This young woman, yes fourteen is not a child, is on her way to monsterhood.


We have more empathy for someone killing a dog, then a woman (pregnant no less)

This story didn’t even get much local attention.  Just a little.

Teen accused of trying to kill stepmother

Girl allegedly put antifreeze in drink



A 14-year-old Oconto County girl is accused of trying to kill her pregnant stepmother by putting antifreeze in the woman’s sports drink.

Chyanne Otto of Suring is charged with attempted first-degree intentional homicide, a felony. A criminal complaint filed in Oconto County Circuit Court alleged that the teen in May 2010 slipped anti-freeze into a bottle of PowerAde, and that her stepmother, Dawn Otto, drank from it.

“I so want to kill Dawn, but she is pregnant. So I am going to kill her and the baby or just her and wait until October,” the complaint claims that Chyanne Otto wrote in her journal.

The complaint also alleges that the teen wrote, “Dawn won’t die, I gave her a bunch of junk of stuff out of the garage last week and she is not dead, so I am doing it again with only antifreeze, so hopefully it works.”

Dawn Otto drank from the bottle, noticed an unusual taste, and phoned her husband thinking he might have been using the container to store chemicals.

The complaint stated that the teen’s family became suspicious of the girl in the fall, after receiving a call from the parent of one of the girl’s classmates. The Ottos then checked the girl’s journal, the complaint said.

Someone convicted of attempted first-degree homicide can be imprisoned for up to 60 years.

Chyanne Otto is scheduled for the balance of her initial appearance Wednesday. She was released on a $50,000 signature bond under the conditions that she live with her grandfather and have no contact with her stepmother.



MRI’s prove that a MOTHER is THE most special person in a Child’s life. Proposition 8 Judge is WRONG. Children have a SPECIAL bond with their mothers.

August 29, 2010

The GAY’s are going to really hate this.  This proves that the mother is an absolutely necessary component and that a mother is necessary to the development of a child.

The thing is, is that I believe that both are necessary for a well adjusted and balanced individual, but without a female figure, then the development is severely retarded.

Does the gay Judge in California know about this?  Why is he CRIPPLING children by his DECREE.

Proposition 8 should be reinstated for the health and welfare of children.

California – mentally deficient judge says that kids are entitled to neither a mother or a father. The Constitution requires LIFE as the first directive. LIFE can only be created by MALE AND FEMALE – the Constitution REQUIRES the NATURAL laws be followed.

This judge has committed an act of Dereliction of Duty!

Mum matters most in the eyes of their children:

The special lifelong bond that children have with their mothers may have its roots in how our brains react when we see our mothers’ faces, according to scientists.

By Richard Gray, Science Correspondent
Published: 7:30AM BST 29 Aug 2010

Mum matters most in the eyes of their children

Using Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI) machines, the researchers measured the brain activity of volunteers as they were shown photographs of their parents, strangers and celebrities. Photo: Alamy

Mothers are said to hold a special lifelong place in their children’s hearts, but it also appears they have a unique significance in their brains too.

Using Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI) machines, the researchers measured the brain activity of volunteers as they were shown photographs of their parents, strangers and celebrities.

When images of the participants’ mothers were shown to them, the scientists found that it “lit up” key areas, associated with recognition and emotion.

The findings suggest that mothers produce a complex and lasting emotional and cognitive response in their children’s brain, as a result of the bonding experience that takes place between them and their children, as babies.

Scientists believe the findings shed new light on the extent to which humans experience “imprinting” – a phenomenon observed in many birds and animals in which youngsters form very strong attachments to the first creature they see after being born.

As a result, the youngsters follow their mother around and can rapidly learn from her characteristics and behaviour, which are said to be “imprinted” on them.

Human babies do not undergo such rapid imprinting, but many scientists believe the bond between mother and child can have crucial implications in later life and even into adulthood.

The new study, which is reported in the scientific journal Brain and Cognition, involved 20 volunteers with an average age of 35.

Dr Marie Arsalidou, from the University of Toronto, in Canada, who carried out the research along with academics from the University of Winchester, in the UK, said: “Differential activity to mothers’ faces may be attributable to greater exposure to one’s mothers face during critical childhood years.”

She added: “The fact that this activation is even seen in adults who have lived away from their parents for many years does suggest that it is certainly a very long-term effect.”

Fathers faces produced a strong response in an area deep inside the brain known to contribute to feelings of affection but failed to produce anywhere near as much brain activity when compared to the volunteers’ mothers.

Celebrities faces prompted far less brain activity than images of parents, but greater activity than in strangers faces, mainly due to the recognition and memories those faces induced.

Professor Ann Buchanan, director of the Oxford Centre for Research into Parenting and Children at Oxford University, said: “This brain research is giving a physical understand for things we know emotionally.

“It seems like the brain is born like a disk that has been formatted but nothing has been put into it.

“This crucial interaction between the primary carer, which is usually the mother, is crucial for brain development and later emotional development.”


California – mentally deficient judge says that kids are entitled to neither a mother or a father. The Constitution requires LIFE as the first directive. LIFE can only be created by MALE AND FEMALE – the Constitution REQUIRES the NATURAL laws be followed.

August 9, 2010

Not only is he undermining the Constitution, but he is also acting in a seditious manor.  He is requiring that kids be put in harms way.  He creates injury to the child by creating a situation that orphans the child from getting the proper nurturing from a male and female.  These children will be injured.  It is by his pen that he allows it.  Judges that are mentally deficient should be removed from having the ability to JUDGE.

The definition of Judge:

v. judgedjudg·ingjudg·es

. To form an opinion or estimation of after careful consideration: judge heights; judging character.

a. Law To hear and decide on in a court of law; try: judge a case.
b. Obsolete To pass sentence on; condemn.
c. To act as one appointed to decide the winners of: judge an essay contest.
3. To determine or declare after consideration or deliberation.
4. Informal To have as an opinion or assumption; suppose: I judge you’re right.
5. Bible To govern; rule. Used of an ancient Israelite leader.


1. To form an opinion or evaluation.

2. To act or decide as a judge.


1. One who judges, especially:

a. One who makes estimates as to worth, quality, or fitness: a good judge of used cars; a poor judge of character.
b. Abbr. J. Law A public official who hears and decides cases brought before a court of law.
c. Law A bankruptcy referee.
d. One appointed to decide the winners of a contest or competition.

2. Bible

a. A leader of the Israelites during a period of about 400 years between the death of Joshua and the accession of Saul.

b. Judges (used with a sing. verb) Abbr. Judg. or Jgs or Jg See Table at Bible.


Judges- Are supposed to be representatives and enforcers of the ideas and IDEALS that WE THE PEOPLE (the Constitution) determined that we wanted to be GOVERNED with.  When Judges FAIL to UNDERSTAND that they are sitting in judgement of us, the judge has to exrecise his judgement with us in mind and he needs to be a REPRESENTATIVE of us.

A homosexual “lifestyle” is not the “lifestyle” that creates CHILDREN.  It can be tolerated by society but it’s not an IDEAL of society.  Their “lifestyle” is a CHOICE that they make, and that is in opposition to the natural order of things.

If you take an island and put only gays on that island, then you would have people going against those choices, in order to survive as humans.  No children = the end of humanity.  Although, liberals think that there are too many people, most of the rest of society understand and children are BLESSINGS and the way to eternal life.  They are our legacy.  They ensure that we survive.

This monster is espousing the cult of death.  The homosexual life is a not something to emulate.  Live and let live.  Let the homosexuals live however they want amongst themselves.  They should not be judging US with their values and thereby forcing their values on us.  These values yield extinction.  This goes against the NATURAL ORDER of things.  Live and let live, but don’t judge NORMAL society with values that come from outside the NORM.  The Constitution says that LIFE is first.  That G-d, our creator, put LIFE first.  If you don’t believe in g-d, then that ok too, but LIFE (the natural order) comes FIRST.

The idea of marriage is enshrined in one Religion.  Gays can have civil unions, but children should not enter in to that civil union, because children would NEVER be a NATURAL occurrence with in that union.  The Constitution is enshrined with two things in mind, Judeo Christian values and the Natural order of things.  Marriage by definition, however, is a RELIGIOUS definition.  The gays can have civil unions.

Children will, by this judges pen stoke, be deprived as part of the definition.

Children who grow up in other than NORMAL situations are damaged, they may do well in life, but it is not the NORM.  Those children who do well, do so DESPITE of their situation not as a result of it.

The judge used his homosexual biased to pick and choose quotes that represented what he wanted to convey.  There have been more “real life” people who have said that they came out of those type of situations “damaged” or outside the norm.

This judge is an activist and should be disbarred.  This judge is not capable of being impartial.

The people of California – 52% voted to get this law to ban gay marriage.  He goes against the Constitution and the WILL of the people.

Same-Sex Marriage Judge Finds That a Child Has Neither a Need Nor a Right to a Mother:

Monday, August 09, 2010
By Terence P. Jeffrey, Editor-in-Chief

U.S. District Judge Vaughn R. Walker ruled last week in federal court in San Francisco that same-sex marriage is a constitutional right. (AP Photo/Todd Rogers)

U.S. District Judge Vaughn R. Walker ruled last week in federal court in San Francisco that same-sex marriage is a constitutional right. (AP Photo/Todd Rogers)

(CNSNews.com) – U.S. District Judge Vaughn R. Walker, who ruled last week that a voter-approved amendment to California’s constitution that limited marriage to the union of one man and one woman violated the Fourteenth Amendment of the U.S. Constitution, based that ruling in part on his finding that a child does not need and has no right to a mother.

Nor, he found, does a child have a need or a right to a father.

“Children do not need to be raised by a male parent and a female parent to be well-adjusted, and having both a male and a female parent does not increase the likelihood that a child will be well-adjusted,” the judge wrote in finding of fact No. 71 in his opinion.

“The gender of a child’s parent is not a factor in a child’s adjustment,” the judge stated in finding of fact No. 70. “The sexual orientation of an individual does not determine whether that individual can be a good parent. Children raised by gay or lesbian parents are as likely as children raised by heterosexual parents to be healthy, successful and well-adjusted. The research supporting this conclusion is accepted beyond serious debate in the field of developmental psychology.”

Despite Walker’s claim that this “fact” is “beyond serious debate,” one of the sources he cited for it was a brochure published by the American Psychological Association (APA) that was entered into evidence in the case, which specifically stated twice: “Few studies are available regarding children of gay fathers.” Walker did not quote this part of the brochure in his opinion.

However, Walker did quote this same brochure as saying: “[S]ocial science has shown that the concerns often raised about children of lesbian and gay parents–concerns that are generally grounded in prejudice against and stereotypes about gay people–are unfounded.”

This quote comes from a side-bar box on page five of the six-page APA brochure. The box purports to answer the “most common questions” about homosexual parents, posing four such questions and giving the APA’s answer to them.

The first is: “Do children of lesbian and gay parents have more problems with sexual identity than do children of heterosexual parents?”

The full answer in the brochure is as follows: “For instance, do these children develop problems in gender identity and/or in gender role behavior? The answer from research is clear: sexual and gender identities (including gender identity, gender-role behavior, and sexual orientation) develop in much the same way among children of lesbian mothers as they do among children of heterosexual parents. Few studies are available regarding children of gay fathers.”

The brochure does not explain why the APA concludes that the “answer from research is clear” that children of homosexual parents do not have more problems with sexual identity than children with mothers and fathers when in fact, as the brochure itself states, “[f]ew studies are available regarding children of gay fathers.” Nor does Judge Walker explain how his finding of “fact” that the gender of parents does not matter to children is “beyond serious debate” when in fact his own source stipulates that “[f]ew studies are available regarding children of gay fathers.”

The second question answered in the brochure is:  “Do children raised by lesbian or gay parents have problems in personal development in areas other than sexual identity?”

The entirety of the answer provided in the brochure states:  “For example, are the children of lesbian or gay parents more vulnerable to mental breakdown, do they have more behavior problems, or are they less psychologically healthy than other children? Again, studies of personality, self-concept, and behavior problems show few differences between children of lesbian mothers and children of heterosexual parents. Few studies are available regarding children of gay fathers.”

Judge Walker does not quote this part of the brochure in his finding that the gender of parents does not matter, nor does he explain how his finding can be “beyond serious debate” when in fact the very evidence he uses to establish this point states that “[f]ew studies are available regarding gay fathers.”

To further his case that the well-being of children is no bar to declaring same-sex marriage a right protected  by the Fourteenth Amendment, Judge Walker makes a finding of fact that the state of California already legally recognizes that the gender of parents is irrelevant.  As Walker reports it, California laws goes so far as to “encourage” homosexuals to acquire children whether through adoption, foster care, or artificially conceiving a child and, presumably, in the case of a male-male couple, securing a female to gestate the child until the male-male couple can take custody of it.

“California law permits and encourages gays and lesbians to become parents through adoption, foster parenting or assistive reproductive technology,” writes Walker in finding of fact No. 49. “Approximately 18 percent of same-sex couples in California are raising children.”

To support this finding, Walker notes that California’s attorney general, who is Jerry Brown, “admits that the laws of California recognize no relationship between a person’s sexual orientation and his or her ability to raise children.”

“Attorney General admits,” writes Walker, “that California law protects the right of gay men and lesbians in same-sex relationships to be foster parents and to adopt children by forbidding discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation.”

Walker’s ruling declaring same-sex marriage protected under the Fourteenth Amendment of the U.S. Constitution, if upheld by the U.S. Supreme Court, would have ramifications far beyond California, requiring states across the union to recognize same-sex marriages while wiping out any legal protection a child might have from being handed over by state governments to same-sex couples either through adoption or foster parenthood.

The Equal Protection Clause of the Fourteenth Amendment as applied by Walker would require states to grant a marriage license to same-sex couples and would-be parents, while implicitly annihilating the notion that each American child has an equal right to a mother and a father.

A child put out for adoption or foster parenting by the state, or a child conceived through technological means and gestated in a hired womb, would have no right not to be assigned to a homosexual couple who would act as his or her father and father or mother and mother.


Saudi Mother can’t leave country – Jailed because she is a female

July 15, 2010

Regardless of this woman’s reasons why she wants to leave the country, she should be allowed to go whereever she pleases.

This is inhumane.

Saudi Arabia is a moderate Islamic country.

The Muslims want sharia law in the WEST.  All of the women in the west better read this letter and hear the words of anguish in this womans pleas.

ISLAM is not compatible with the WEST.  Sharia law should be banned.  Muslim should be required to renounce Sharia law.

Islamization should be against public policy in the WEST.

ISLAM is incorporates POLITICS and LAW, which may not be divided from it’s Religion.

Islam deviates from all other major Religions of the world.  All religions bring people together for a purpose.  That purpose in all the other religions are for the furtherance and bettering of LIFE.  Islamic CORE has submission and conquest through any means, at it’s core.  Death is the pinnacle of greatness, because it’s only in DEATH that one achieves his LIFES goals.  Mothers are required to reproduce and then martyr themselves for the advancement of Islam.  There is no grace in this life.

Hear this womans pleas and imagine yourself in her jail.


I am 42 yr old Saudi female physician, divorced, and mother of three teenagers, and arrived back in Saudi Arabia on 3/2007, after obtaining higher medical training in the USA and working full time at a top private center. Since 3/2007, I never boarded a plane.

I wrote an article back in July 2009, using a cover up name and managed to remove travel ban obstruction opposed by my ex-husband after nearly two years. Then I applied for a replacement of lost passport in the fall of last year.

I also sent out several letters to the Ministry of Interior requesting a replacement passport without need of male guardian.There was no luck obviously, and response was “need male guardian, regardless of age, education, job title, or marital status.”

Officials were nice enough to accept my teenage son as male guardian; things were okay till my Father who is retired, showed up and protested that he retains higher male guardian authority (I live with my Mother and mother’s side brothers) and he declared that he has my lost passport -!- and simply does not want to issue a passport for me, although several of my father ‘s side bothers and sisters are abroad studying. I feel like a ball being thrown from one side to the other.

I cannot renew my medical license without attending conferences or seminars; also I am sending my son to college, supporting him financially and definitely want to be there for him step by step till he settles.

I am also financially supporting my mother and covering up for my kids’ needs. This is outrageous: I am in charge of human lives, but not my own life. Jailed in simply because I am divorced from the person my father chose for me. In spite he is married now with new kids. My father who is in his late 60s, disliked by my other brothers for his outrageous interference in our lives, is holding this on me. And when my other brothers and family members tried to help, he wrote a letter with alot of nonsense wanting me to sign, and he may or may not grant me my passport.

Is there any way out?

Comments on this website, below, would be so appreciated.

There are a lot like me, but do not have the courage to express.


Dr. Fadha Sultan


Houston, TX – Mother facilitates daughters abuse – little girl dies of fractured skull, but had suffered 80 bruises and sexual assault. She was beginning to show signs of herpes – all this at the ripe old age of Four!

July 12, 2010

My heart aches and my skin crawls with this news.

The social atmosphere and the COMMUNIST Anti family, anti feminine, anti child and the deprivation of the natural nurturing by mothers to their children has fostered.  This death cult that we are now living in.

Imagine that little girl with the 80 bruises and a fractured skull.  This made my skin crawl.  The innocent child being treated like that and her mother not doing anything about it?  These people are not human.  These people are not fit to be walking around with NORMAL people.

The death centence for the guy who did it would be justice and the mother the same.  She facilitated it.  She is not HUMAN.

Emma Thompson, 4, was found to have 80 bruises and a fractured skull.

Emma Thompson, 4, was found to have 80 bruises and a fractured skull.

A Harris County jury today returned a guilty verdict against the mother of a 4-year-old girl who died after prosecutors say the woman stood by while her boyfriend beat and raped the child.

Jurors deliberated about four hours before finding Abigail Young guilty of injury to a child by recklessness, resulting in serious bodily injury, in the death of Emma Thompson last summer. The same jury will return to court Tuesday to begin considering a punishment for Young, which could range from probation to 20 years in prison.

Prosecutors had asked the jury to convict Young of a more serious first-degree felony, which would have made her eligible for a life sentence.

Abigail Young

Abigail Young

Young burst into tears this afternoon as the verdict was read.

Her lawyers rested their case this morning without calling Young to testify.

“Didn’t need to,” attorney Julie Ketterman said at the time. “I don’t think they proved their case.”

Young’s boyfriend, Lucas Coe, is set to stand trial later this summer on a charge of super aggravated sexual assault.

The final witness in Young’s trial today was her 12-year-old Laura Duty, who testified by video. She told jurors that Emma suffered two serious falls on June 27, 2009, the day she died, while in Lucas Coe’s care. The first fall was in the family kitchen, where Emma hit her head on a bench, the child testified. The second fall came in the bathroom, where Emma hit her head on a toilet, she said.

Emma arrived dead at an emergency room with 80 bruises and a fractured skull. If convicted, Young faces up to life in prison.

According to prosecutors, Young began having an affair with Coe in 2008, while married to her second husband and Emma’s father, Ben Thompson. Coe was facing a pending and unrelated child abuse charge when the two began seeing each other.

Prosecutors have said that as Emma began showing signs of sexual abuse, including a diagnosis of genital herpes three weeks before her death, Young lied to authorities, including denying she was seeing someone.


Palestinian baby gets life saving care in an Israeli hospital with a donation by an Israeli. The mother “admitted, during the complex transplant process, that she would like to see her son perpetrate a suicide bombing attack in Jerusalem.”

July 9, 2010

I’ve read Brigitte Gabriel’sFront Cover and that book and her experiences lie in stark contrast in my mind regard people in the ME.

How different these people are.  They are in stark contrast to us.  Vile.  Brainwashed, but vile still.

These people are not elevated to be animals.  They are something else.

Islam teaches this.  Islam, where the highest thing that you could achieve is DEATH.

All other religions are used to bring people together so that they could survive, this one brings them together so that they could die.

EVIL.  No respect for life.

Sharia is the law that these people subscribe to.  The Law that kills.

(via MoonbatteryElder of ZionIslamonazismGateway Pundit and, astuteblogger):

Saving Mohammed Abu-Mustafa:

A desperately ill Palestinian baby, his militant mother, an Israeli doctor and a Channel 10 reporter star in Shlomi Eldar’s moving documentary, ‘Precious Life,’ which premieres at the upcoming Jerusalem Film Festival.

By Coby Ben-Simhon

He went to see her at twilight on a Friday, finding his way through the labyrinth that is the parking lot of Sheba Medical Center at Tel Hashomer. She was waiting for him upstairs – a woman in despair, holding an infant close to death in her arms. But Shlomi Eldar, the Gaza correspondent for Channel 10 News, did not hurry. He delayed his entry into the depressing neon-lit corridors. Already in the opening scene of his documentary, “Precious Life,” he admits he did not want to come – that it all happened by chance, because of circumstances over which he had no control.

“I came here without any desire,” he says, looking for a parking space in the large, empty lot. “It’s not for me, but I had no choice.”

In Sheba’s pediatric hemato-oncology department was Mohammed Abu Mustafa, a four-and-a-half-month-old Palestinian infant. Protruding from his tiny body were pipes attached to big machines. His breathing was labored.

“His days may be numbered. He is suffering from a genetic defect that is causing the failure of his immune system,” said the baby’s mother, Raida, from the Gaza Strip, when she emerged from the isolation room. “I had two daughters in Gaza,” she continued, her black eyes shimmering. “Both died because of immune deficiency. In Gaza I was told all the time that there is no treatment for this and that he is doomed to die. The problem now is how to pay for the [bone marrow] transplant. There is no funding.”

Now, two years later in his home in Nes Tziona, near Rehovot, Eldar recalls the moments that led him to make a searing, full-length documentary film, which will premiere at the Jerusalem Film Festival on July 10. (The film is in Hebrew and Arabic with English subtitles. ) He remembers standing mutely opposite the woman.

“I came to the hospital to do a report on her for the news,” he relates. “This was after Gaza was closed to me. I had entered and left Gaza for more than two decades – it always excited me with its turbulence and wildness. Then, one day they closed it, closed my place of work. That really shook me. I got up in the morning and had nowhere to go.”

With the frankness that is his hallmark, Eldar does not hide the fact that when he received the report about the Palestinian infant in need of a financial donation to save his life, he felt no urge to rush to the scene.

“Just a week earlier I did a report about a Palestinian woman who gave birth to twins in Barzilai Medical Center in Ashkelon just as a Grad missile struck the hospital,” he relates. “I just didn’t have the patience for it. But I felt a need to do another piece – to prove to the news department that I was still working. So I went to Sheba that day, even though I didn’t really feel like it. When I went upstairs, I looked out toward the horizon, in the direction of Gaza, and I remember myself saying to Gaza, ‘So long,’ and wondering if I were now doomed to be a hospital reporter.”

Without him knowing it, from that moment everything began to change. In short order Eldar was confronted with a saga involving a breathtaking race to save the life of an unfortunate infant. Author Yoram Kaniuk, who saw the film two weeks ago at a screening for the Israeli Film and Television Academy, says he was enthralled by it.

“You don’t feel that the film was made about something, rather that it evolves in front of your eyes,” he says. “You can’t guess what the next step will be. The events altered and created the reality that Shlomi describes with such power and beauty. And sadness. It was strange: I watched the film and felt it constituted a kind of lament for our situation – for this lovely baby that was going to die.”

Kaniuk says he felt he was watching “a tragedy with hope,” as he puts it. “Above all, there was something very human in the film. It’s tragic, even grotesque, but that is our life. For example, the Israeli physician, Dr. Raz Somech, who treats the infant so empathetically and devotedly, is called up for reserve duty while the film is being shot and goes off to war in Gaza. Every moment, large or small, is fraught with meaning. Shlomi knows how to capture those moments. There was one moment, when a relative from Gaza comes to the hospital and calls the grass she is walking on ‘plants.’ She simply does not know what grass is.”

Kaniuk does not spare the compliments: “I can tell you that it’s one of the best documentaries I have seen. It’s a very dramatic experience for the viewers. After it was over, people just sat there, not moving, in a state of shock. The movie got into their gut. Mine, too. And four minutes later they started to applaud.”

Eldar is embarrassed by such praise. He would rather talk about the first days of shooting, when he still had no idea that he would spend the next eight months caught up in the story of a young mother fighting to save her dying son. On the contrary: He thought the baby would be buried alongside his sisters in the Khan Yunis cemetery.

“I got to her after all the attempts to find a donation for the transplant had failed,” he relates. “I understood that I was the baby’s last hope, but I didn’t give it much of a chance. At the time, Qassam rockets falling on Sderot opened every newscast. In that situation, I didn’t believe that anyone would be willing to give a shekel for a Palestinian infant.”

He was wrong. Hours after the news item about Mohammed was broadcast, the hospital switchboard was jammed with callers. An Israeli Jew whose son died during his military service donated $55,000, and for the first time the Abu Mustafa family began to feel hopeful. Only then did Eldar grasp the full dramatic potential of the story. He told his editor, Tali Ben Ovadia, that he wanted to continue accompanying the family.

update - picture added 8-9-10: Mohammed Abu Mustafa

update - picture added 8-9-10: Mohammed Abu Mustafa

“Even though she courageously broadcast the story about Mohammed 10 minutes into the broadcast, when it came to the idea of a movie she said, ‘Forget that nonsense – who cares about a Palestinian baby?’ I saw that time was passing and I wasn’t able to put together a crew. In the end, knowing that the baby’s father was due to arrive at the hospital in another two days, I decided to shoot the movie alone.”

Eldar returned to the hospital armed with a Sony 400 Camcorder, but then, to his surprise, he ran into objections from the family.

“The father, Fawzi, had no trouble with it,” he says. “He had once worked in Ra’anana and knew the Israeli mentality, the ‘situation.’ For the mother, Raida, it was harder, and at first she did not want to be interviewed for the film. Her stay at Sheba was her first encounter with Israelis, and it wasn’t easy for her. For example, when she went through the Erez checkpoint, just a few days before we met, she thought she would be shot or raped and murdered. Fawzi tried to persuade her and also had her mother call and try to win her over. But she was insistent. She was convinced it would be an Israeli propaganda film in which the Israelis would show how good they are, and that as soon as the camera left the medical assistance would end, too.”

What finally persuaded her?

Eldar: “I don’t know what exactly did it, but in the end she spoke to me. I think that both she and her husband felt that because the donation arrived in the wake of my report, I had a part in their son’s new life. They understood it long before I did. So all the walls of suspicion were broken down between us. They gave me the opportunity to get as close as possible to them. In fact, before Fawzi left the hospital to return to Gaza, he said to me, ‘Shlomi, watch over Raida. I am entrusting her to you.’ It is extremely unusual for a Palestinian man to place his wife in the safekeeping of a Jewish man.”

Calm and crisis

Nevertheless, this idyllic situation developed into a deep crisis that led to the severance of the relations and what appeared to be the end of the filming. From an innocent conversation about religious holidays, Raida Abu Mustafa launched into a painful monologue about the culture of the shahids – the martyrs – and admitted, during the complex transplant process, that she would like to see her son perpetrate a suicide bombing attack in Jerusalem.

“Jerusalem is ours,” she declared. “We are all for Jerusalem, the whole nation, not just a million, all of us. Do you understand what that means – all of us?”

She also explained to Eldar exactly what she had in mind. “For us, death is a natural thing. We are not frightened of death. From the smallest infant, even smaller than Mohammed, to the oldest person, we will all sacrifice ourselves for the sake of Jerusalem. We feel we have the right to it. You’re free to be angry, so be angry.”

And Eldar was angry. “Then why are you fighting to save your son’s life, if you say that death is a usual thing for your people?” he lashes out in one of the most dramatic moments in the film.

“It is a regular thing,” she smiles at him. “Life is not precious. Life is precious, but not for us. For us, life is nothing, not worth a thing. That is why we have so many suicide bombers. They are not afraid of death. None of us, not even the children, are afraid of death. It is natural for us. After Mohammed gets well, I will certainly want him to be a shahid. If it’s for Jerusalem, then there’s no problem. For you it is hard, I know; with us, there are cries of rejoicing and happiness when someone falls as a shahid. For us a shahid is a tremendous thing.”

That was enough to drain Eldar’s motivation and dissolve all the compassion he had felt for Raida and Mohammed.

“It was an absolutely terrible rift,” he recalls. “After I saw how intensely she fought for her son’s life, I could not accept what she said. I had seen her standing for hours, caressing him, warming him up, kissing him. At the time I also had an infant of Mohammed’s age at home. I couldn’t understand where it came from in her. I was devastated. It was all so paradoxical, too, because just as she was talking about the shahids, two Jewish women entered the room and brought her toys and a stroller as presents.”

Raida’s confession was totally at odds with Eldar’s perception of her until then: “The whole time I accompanied her, I saw a caring mother who was at her baby’s bedside night and day. She didn’t eat, she lost weight and she cried. I myself saw to it that she ate. I saw her faint when she was informed there was a small chance her son would get well. I saw her when she was told there was no longer a chance, and she stood there and caressed Mohammed, with tears, as though parting from him.

“So I was unable to explain how on the one hand, she fought for her child’s life, but at the same time told me that his life is not precious. I never believed I would hear that from her. That’s why I decided to stop shooting. I had come to tell a lovely story, not a story about a mother who destines her son to be a shahid.”

What did you feel when she said that to you?

“That I had been betrayed, that it was a knife in the back. I didn’t want to see Raida any more. It also drove me to greater despair. I asked myself, ‘Well, is that the conclusion that comes from this story?’ But in the end I started filming again. Why? I don’t have a good answer; I think it was from curiosity. I wanted to solve the mystery for myself. Something inside me said that it was inconceivable. Something that explains what she said comes later in the film. I don’t want to give too much away. I will say only that the struggle for Mohammed’s life takes place parallel to the war between Israel and Hamas in Gaza, and thrusts Raida between a rock and a hard place, confronts her with cruel dilemmas.”

But you didn’t have it easy, either. While making the film you continued to cover the war in Gaza, though in contrast to your colleagues you insisted on showing the human dimension of the catastrophe there. People did not always like to hear your angle, did they?

“Definitely not. I thought, and I still think, that Israel used exaggerated, very excessive firepower. I did not feel comfortable with the fact that a large number of the Palestinian dead were civilians, and I thought it was right to emphasize that. Afterward, I got abusive phone calls; people sent faxes and complaints to the station. Fine. I was more bothered by the Israeli paradox that on the one hand we’re treating infants like Mohammed in our hospitals, while on the other the Israeli army fires a shell into Beit Lahia which kills a mother and her four daughters.”

That paradox is integral to the film and casts a pall over it, while creating a sense of responsibility for the suffering of Mohammed and his parents. The film is able to create empathy even for the situation of the civilians in Gaza during the war. Was that your goal?

“I was very grieved by the insensitivity we were seeing. It’s clear to me that the war in Gaza was justified – no country can allow itself to be fired at with Qassam rockets – but I did not see many people pained by the loss of life on the Palestinian side. Because we were so angry at Hamas, all the Israeli public wanted was to fuck Gaza. It’s not by chance that I use that crass word. I use it because it was often heard on the street and it was a military slogan. I remember the wife of my barber telling me, ‘Let them kill all the Palestinians, let them burn.’

“It wasn’t until after the incident of Dr. Abu al-Aish – the Gaza physician I spoke with on live TV immediately after a shell struck his house and caused the death of his daughters, and he was shouting with grief and fear – that I discovered the silent majority that has compassion for people, including Palestinians. I found that many Israeli viewers shared my feelings. That was not the intention with which I set out, but the film creates a kind of encounter. Even though the woman speaks Arabic and sometimes covers her face, even though the ‘stars’ are a Palestinian couple – Israeli viewers are able to see themselves through them. When Raida cries for her baby, the audience cries with her, and when she laughs, they laugh with her.”

‘I had dynamite’

Shlomi Eldar, 53, is married for the second time and has five children. He started his media career on Reshet Gimmel, the radio station that plays Israeli music only.

“I got there after my life’s dream of doing my military service with Army Radio ended in a fiasco when I failed the entrance tests,” he says. “As a youngster, I was a walking encyclopedia of subjects related to music. I was a different type of kid in the Neve Yisrael neighborhood, a lower-class section of Herzliya. Music was my life from early on. I remember the day when my brother brought home a record player and we listened to the Beatles’ ‘Sergeant Pepper’s.’ But when I finally got to Reshet Gimmel and supposedly fulfilled my dream, I discovered that all I did was play records, which wasn’t really what I wanted to do.”

He wrote to Elimelech Ram, then director of Israel Television’s news department, requesting an interview. When he did not get a reply, he joined a managerial training course given by Bank Hapoalim.



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